Recently

Cold water flows through every single of my hair, by taking a deep breath, i can feel myself, i'm still alive. The feeling doesn't lie. It's time to be honest to myself. I lift up my head, water spreads out from my face, everything that questioning me, sarcastically look at me, and torture me in my daily life will come to me now. The water keep flowing down, i can barely feel the water flows through my mind. It's time, Sun raise up and slowly, i can feel the light shot on my face, the little heat...

Well, recently few things happen on me. It can be said to be nothing if i really take it as nothing. On my physical, mental, and so... Since i choose to do so, i don't expect any goods. And ofcuz, feed back will be spelled back. I really take a long long time to calm down myself, think carefully, everything that i do, i did, what i hv done... I dare not tell myself that it's fool, but i can't describe it anyhow. It's said that this is the path that everyone will go through it. I agreed but i can't satisfy with myself.

When i turn my face and look into other situation, the view is totally different from what my eyes always involved in. I can feel my life back. The section is clear. It takes me another deep breath. Look into it, and look back to it, i question myself again. Do u really like that? Don't break ur spear using ur own shield..

Now, I'm standing in the conjunction, i don't really can see what is in front of me but i can sure what is better to me by reading the road signs. Well, darkness comes to me. It's going to rain soon. I shl make my decision earlier so that i can hide myself. Well, people always confuse in this situation, afraid to make a conclusion which they as myself will be wrong. Life is no regret, no part 2, no NG. This reminds me the poem, The Road Not Taken. I hv ntg much comments on this. I pray to God, for him, He knows the way i shl take, and he will lead me to the place i shl be.

P/s: Slowly and slowly, i believe i can forget abt it. Time is the key, to open, or to lock...

Back New Year!

Yo! I'm back~ Quite a long time didn't sign in my acc. Just standing beside and reading others blog. =P Becuz of what? What Mr.Chew always states our class, L.A.Z.Y. Well, back to here, new year time is going to end soon. Time to pack my things and also, my mood and plan to back to my bird nest. Here's my new year journey~ Let's ride
(Wed)

Early in the morning, i started my journey to fetch Haren and Jlim and headed to IBM, where our starting point. And also, met Vior at there.

At Mr.Chew house, he is the cutest teacher i ever met. Kindly take a pic with him, he looks younger! His house is awesome. =)
Xuan: " Sir, let's TWO~"
Chew: " No, TEN better, HAHA."
Xuan: "..."


The amount of angpao i got, YET, it will be increased. =)

In my car, from left, Me, Vior, Haren and JLim. =)

Well, we went many places, most of them are friends, 2 teacher - Mr.TLK and Mr.Chew. We had our dinner at Li Ho's house, steamboat. ^^ Thn we departed at about 8p.m. Decided to hv a movie, all headed to Pacific, where we thought the highest percentage we can get tickets with good seats. Big small soldier, though it consisted only laugh, we still enjoy it. And we found a secret there. Wahaha~

Well, that's all for my recent journey. The rest, Coming Soon~ =)

p/s: Bonding in chem is awesome, single bond, covalent bond, ionic bond, and Hydrogen Bond! Careful!!

New to 2010

I don't really expect the date now is 30/1/2010. First month has passed without any notice. Ya, what i talk abt is not only the date. Looking forward to the date, cancel out all of the time on sleeping, play, on class, on special day which we would properly allow us to waste it, on fun, on friends, on 4 words - L, A, Z, Y and etc.. STPM is no longer in front of us..

For now, i meet the friend that i heard of him long long time ago, who i nvr meet.. His name "pressure". I think i can communicate with him well, that's why he keeps on with me. We talk less, cuz he likes to stay around me and looking at me without making any sounds. He's cute, as i invites him for a game or outing to relax, he rejects. He accompanies me always whenever in class, in hostel, in my bed, in my dream... He told me that he comes from a place, named "Surrounding". It's somewhere around the world. He can find us through study, work, friends, family and etc.. i found that most of them are becuz of high-expectation. Expectation to u, from friends, from family, from urself.. Well, i don't often start our conversation unless he talks to me first.. Sometimes he will go for hols too as my hols too. Well, he told me that he will spend at least 1 more year around me. I don't talk much, just continue doing what i shl do...

Ok, let's back to recent life.. It's just like a formula, by filling in the same conditions, results will always almost the same. May be this is what we called it as study project. the project that most of us will hv to face it. One day, we will hand in it and present it. Well, the formula still works on me, waiting the day to break the formula.

p/s: Knowing where our sun is, run towards it, without any delay, make it proud of us.

It's time

A time ago,
Don't really know,
just think to go,
the way to go,
as i do so,
it's hard to me so...

Think to give,
as a gift,
not to you,
but to both,
may hv gibe,
still better not to gig...

I should do so as i do,
Like a fool who's too sure,
A fire without flame,
I'm a song without a soul...

An emo poem, which perhaps can make me feel better.. As time goes on, lower six has past. Nothing to talk much about my study, it's boring. Anyway, i will do my best on it. Makes no regret, no mercy to the paper! It's time to "Culling blade" the complicated situation. As too much of things is unexplainable, better get myself out of there. Promised myself not to put an eye on there, not even single moment to think to do that. As that really affected my mood,indeed.

Ok, that's all the report about my recent target. Will modify it as to suit the situation. STPM left 312 days starting from today. Subtract from holidays and unexpected day to go out, I don't think we got much time to revise. To be well prepared for the coming exam SOON, start from now! Makes no excuse to the exam as to ourself too! =) F2

p/s: The graph which feeling against righteous is always inversely proportional.

Back to Jan

I have been away for a month of my blog ago. Here is my report. =]
Birthday - We have to prepare it since after our final exam. 19/12 It is my b'day, my lovely family and cousin had organized a BBQ party for me to celebrate and they bought my favorite choco cake for me. I was so touched! =) After that, i hv to go back to my hostel and continue my 6th form stuffs at there. Sounds like a sad story huh. But i don't think that way. For me, birthday is not only a birth mark to me, but a day that i shl be thankful to my mum who brought me here. Love u my mum, thanks for every moment u give. Love u. =]

Dinner - After my b'day, there will be IBM farewell dinner 2009 at Equatorial Hotel. I was the MC that night, admittedly i didn't really prepare well for that, I'm sry to everyone here. That night I almost went crazy as 90% our program had been spoiled, I was like the ant on the hot kettle. Thanks God, I prayed to God and God answered me by actions. After praying, everything went smooth and everyone did really enjoy the dinner. ^^ At last, It can be said the night is awesome. =)

Christmas - Before Christmas, 24/10 we went to orphanage. Visit them and knows about their life. We shl glad that we got a chance to call papa and mama. We're the lucky one. Will tell details if i still got free time to blog. =) Christmas. We celebrate Christmas it's becuz the name of Christ has come to this world and there will be a new king who can save us. That night, we all did very well, not the performance but the teamwork of us. =) Everyone takes care of other and helps around there. Then we had our supper in Mamak at Taman Pekaka. A great night. =) Merry Christmas.

New year - Happy new year. A new year has come to us but i don't think it's happy. May be it's becuz the date is far far away again from my b'day. Anyway, new year recalls me much things. What i have done, what i did... *too long here* Short cut>> So as a result , I didn't attend my cousin's new year celebration party at Penang, though i went to Perak, Lumut, with teachers and some of my friends. It's a great place to let our hair down, swimming and basketball, both my favor activities. =] We had joy in the room while everyone talks non-stop. The most moment that i felt every tension has gone is the time after swimming, i took a bath, sit comfortly on the sofa, looking at TV, and i tasted a drop of Coffee. Hmm~ Nothing better than this. ^^

p/s: Here is all short cut about my hols, a busy and meaningful hols. =) I'm sorry it's without pic, will try to upload in the coming post. It's quite late now. 5am. I might say it as quite early now. =P

Short story : B'day gift!! ^^

Yea,it's a external hard disc which both of my cute,beautiful,kind and charming sister gave to me as my birthday present. Of course,I'm not showing but just want to share my happiness. These both sister always take care of me and it goes on since i was still chewing my nipple. So touching while i receive this. ^_^ Anyway,it's just a short update to my recent life. =) Thanks to my sister here. Love u both. =)
Wish to IBM students who is having their final exam next week all the best and the most important thing,good luck. Lolz. Going back to my lovely hostel later,mood down-ing. ~.~

p/s: If u understand me,it's understood. =)

Dream = Drug

Everyone has their dream,of course,included me. But what we gonna do with our "growing up age" is to recognize dream and target. Dream,we can make it anytime,anywhere,anyhow. It doesn't need any requirement,as long as u're the main character,everything will just follow ur wish to go on. Dream is perfect to us huh? There is still a very fine line upon it. Facts always tell us that dream doesn't perfect. Admitted..

"You may dream,but do not make dream as ur master",a phrase from form 5 poem,we all still remember,don't we?

"Who will make dream as our master,HaHa,of course not." Sounds similar from every mouth of us,not bad.. Thinking of someone is always shown to us by their behavior and not words.

Thinking, we shl make some time to realize,don't we?

But after realizing,what we always do to it is to ignore. Do nothing on it. "Haiya,just a dream,it won't affect me much." Sounds good. =)

In deep of our heart,we all know that,don't we?

We will commit again.
Ways to solve it will only be known by our self.

Target,which involved logical thinking,future,our self and of course planning. We shl always target our self,but not dreaming our self. As we know,dream is just like a drug,when u lie to urself,this drug kills all ur brain cell. Ur brain will become a nutshell. "It's just like gravity,what it takes is a little push." Do not even make this push to us. As this age,everything is attracting us,it's impossible not to dream,we all know about this,dream will drug our self to enjoy or perhaps,forget the facts. Dream is a Drug. After taking off this drug,we will only find nothing,nothing...

p/s: As i said,it's impossible not to dream. So what i typed up there is nonsense,yet,there is still a very fine line upon it. Infinity always tells us that Zero can be anything,can be nothing. =)
U still can take the drug if and only if u got the immunity skill and u may swallow the drug.