IBM 2nd Week~

It is not bad from outside looking to my hostel,hehe,thats why i dare to capture it and never capture inside...xD~hehe...

Originality way created by my friend,Engineer(he always consider himself) Haren Tan~ to cook to Ba Chang~

My little corner for studying~ with my burger~hehe~

Form 6 math,i feel challenging~and a bit of fear~ haha...

class started at 7.45 a.m,looking out the window,OMG!its raining downpour,no way,have to be the chicken in the soup today. >"<

Bukit Mertajam,surely there will be a Bukit lah~ xD~

IBM,my school now~

It was so much different in the second week of IBM,everythings teacher taught is being harder and harder,and i have to try harder and harder to catch up~

Thank God,you help me most of the time,you are my power...

It's really hard being a "Good" person.As a Christian,i knew what not to do and what i have to do...In fact,i m not feeling well most of the time when i have to step back because i m a Christian,God will happy that i did what he said,but u know...its really so hard to do that...sometimes i m wilful to cry...i stopped it imediately...I don't like to be the "Cry Man",i can handle all thoes things,but...my heart,somehow,its hurt...Just like a wood nail up,even it is plucked off,the hole will never disappear,from God,i got the comfort...BUT I M HUMAN BEING!!

WHY!!!Don't think i gotta step back then ask me to run backwards!! Why?!!! In Ecclesiastes,it told us that this world has lost...eveythings is like dummy...

Most of the time,I can't find fair in my family,as the Nine Knift writer stated that "In house,there is not a place for u to argue about fair,because it's not the lawcourt,SO NO LAW HERE!"

I'm from Buddha family,i m the only 1 christian in there,and,some of them,they look at me like lokking at a stranger?!Hey,come on,i m your brother,we can just like before,why must u ignore me? and after believing in Jesus,i got to suffer from all thoes unfair matters...If before i believe,i can affirm that is it will be a storm in our house again,and later the Zeus(my mum) comes out,u know and i know what will happen...I got no way but have to bear myself,i dont want my mum to be suffered from it,and i dont wan to argue always against my family,and i have to show them that i went to church before,it changed me anyway,so,what i can do is bearing all the fell,no matter how i angry,i bear it,how i sad,i squeeze myself into coverlet and cry....

My family is worse? Not really...just sometimes...if i bear all thoes,then my family may become better...I m not the only kind person in my family also,so don't think my family is worse...my parents and siblings love me,take care of me,but in "other way" only...strange,i can only feel it when i think it very positively...for now,i m going back to BM study again,hopefully,the next week i come back,there is a seat for me...

Thank God,i had beared all thoes unfair and inexplainable matters...take it easy,I'm MEAK! But NOT WEAK! Well...here,i got to appologize to Ly and Pheypei,i cant on9...>"<

i got to stop here,time's up...my friend who i treasure,see you all next week,God always be with u all.