IBM,this is the place where i have started my new life at there. I do believe,for now,i have experienced something different. Recalling my secondary school's life,it's simple and easy. Game + eat + sleep,is there any life can more simple than this? Of course i enjoy it. Time flies so fast that i couldn't even realize time is passing...And it will never return. Some people said that life is easy. How life is that easy? Life is not easy! It's hard,especially if u want to become a Good Man.Of course i m not saying i'm the one,but at least,i m trying my best to.
Now,1a.m,i m still staring on this screen,as tomorrow i got a English Muet speaking test. Recalling,what i have done. How my life goes on... Listening to my breathing,i finally got my time to stay peace. I'm really sorry my friend,being a temper friend,emotional friend... I think i already knew where is problem,but i got to take some time to handle it. For me,now i m really going to become a mad person. Pressure from study,from friends,from situation,from life,from family...The most important is the pressure from myself which i really can't effort it. Demand on myself from me? It's impossible to reach and the worst is i knew what is right and what i should do. I'm so blame full to myself as i m the master of me also. Am i mad? Some answers me is 'Yes,Xuan,u think too much ady.','So i don't have to think? Just ignore those things? I don't want to be a fool.' I answered myself in deep of my mind. Some says 'No,Xuan,u did well somehow,but then u can't change the fact,so that's it.What u can do is to accept it,or else,learn to ignore it.'
Hmm,for now,i believe i m lost. So do i have to think? No matter i know or i don't,what i can do is just ignoring. And the most important thing is,i can't control my emotional while looking at those things. It affected me,very much... I really felt exhausted.I think this is the reason why i get mad nowadays. Apologize to all my friends again here. For next time,i will learn to close my eyes,prevent looking it. It's hard,it's tough,but i will learn,and i must learn! Time to sleep. It's about 1.15am now. Good night my friends.
Prayer: Lord,with your wisdom,help me to solve this situation. And please help all those students who are having Muet Speaking tomorrow and also the day after tomorrow. Amen.
p/s:It's time to slow down my footstep,feel the seconds,i need time. =) Peace~
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